42.0 Be Smart To Manage Your Thoughts.

As I told you some horror movies not horror movies for us, especially when all of us cousins watched it. Actually, it was enough to have one cousin and not required the participation of all. Most of the times my father's elder brother's daughter was my movie partner. Her husband also joined us when there was a movie that was in the preferred category of three of us.
 

So, if he did not like we two went to the movie theatre. One day we went to watch 'Dracula movie. It was one of the very first versions, I guess. Somehow, it showed in the movie theaters in Sri Lanka. We two idiots also wanted to watch that movie for an unknown reason. Lol... We watched the 7.30 p.m. movie after leaving the office. However, the movie hall was not crowded and, there were many free seats.

As one of my friends said, it was not a scary one except only one thing. Though it was the only scary thing I could not forget it for a long time. As you know 'Dracula was the reason for the death of many young girls. But their deaths did not bring sorrow or fear for us. Some deaths and rebirths made us laugh. Lol... However, that scene was a terrific one. 

In that scene when one girl was standing in front of the mirror, 'Dracula appeared suddenly and hugged her crazily. That sudden appearance of 'Dracula made me crazy and it increased my heartbeat as well. In some situations, we could imagine the next scene as per our movie experiences. But here this was a totally unexpected scene for me. So, I excited and it scared me a lot.

  

However, it was the only thing that I can remember. I could not remember the entire story of the movie. So, once it's finished, we two came out and took the lift to go down. There were a few boys who came out after watching the movie. 

On the way to the ground floor, we two laughed for some movie scenes. At that time, one boy saw my weird tooth, which adjusted as 'Dracula's one at the corner of the mouth. Though it was not sharp like 'Dracula's tooth, it highlighted when I was laughing. Not smiling. Lol... So, at that time, he yelled to his friends and said that 'Hey, just now I saw the real 'Dracula's tooth. See, this is the scariest one. It embarrassed me a lot and at that time, my sister also acted as one of their companions. Lol…

In such one night, we went to watch 'Iron Man. On that day, a few of my cousins were there. I could not remember the reason. It was a free movie show and scheduled to start at 9.00 p.m. The organizing committee informed the delay and, asked to stay for an additional hour. Though some of the cousins wanted to go back, the majority wanted to watch the movie. 

Finally, it started at 10.30 p.m. and finished around 12.30 a.m. As it was our cousins' crowd, parents did not follow us. At the time when we were finishing it, all of us were very tired as all of us came after office hours. So, we wanted to go back home quickly. The very few who did not want to watch the movie blamed us by remembering their next work schedules. Therefore, everyone was in different mental statuses. 

When we were going back to the car park, suddenly we saw a couple. They were weird and, both of them wore totally black clothes and, their skin color was very dark. They wore heavy silver jewelry. There was very heavy jewelry in their neck, ear, nose, hand, and legs. They two were like thieves and their behaviors also weird. Their sudden appearance made us laugh and we hardly manage it as they also came with us in the lift. When we went to the car park, we saw their car. It was also a black one. Their appearance brought me to another planet. I felt like that 'Am I on the earth now?. If we had to stay with them for an additional few minutes, definitely that boy would hit all of us. Lol...

However, once I started the journey of being conscious of my own thoughts, the idea I had about movies changed a bit. Actually, I don't know how do you grasp this view. But I would like to explain that view as I think it will help someone. As well as I wanted to say that even though I have not fully aware of my thoughts yet. 

Sometimes I'm daydreaming. Sometimes, I could not manage my thoughts and played the worst scenario. However, I'm trying. I believe that practice will help me on one day to increase the awareness of my own thoughts. You know that when you are looking at someone and observing their behaviors they cannot cheat you. The same thing will be applied to your mind as well. Then it is not dragging you towards the unnecessary thoughts, sorrows, and daydreams. You will be staying in the present moment. You know what does come to your mind, and with that awareness, there won't no space for that thought to build sub thoughts. I think you can imagine this peacefull situation of your mind when you have suffered from overthinking.

As you all know sorrow, fear, anger, and unpleasantness are belonging to sins as those thoughts are not clean things in our minds. So, as we discussed movies here if we take a fight scene as an example, we would like to see the victory of our hero and expect the death of the other one. In such a situation if you can observe your honest thoughts, you can see that how do you expect death or revenge. In that case, our thoughts go towards the anger side. A few years back, that was my status. Sometimes this may be different when compared with you. 

So by unknowingly those thoughts are coming to our mind. We are getting attached to the things and people we saw.  It also contributions to our next egos and at each moment, we are creating our next egos. So, if you think about a movie you watched, it is a collection of all those thoughts. That's why we laugh, cry, and get angry when we were watching a movie. The thing I wanted to tell you here is being aware of your thoughts could make an inner peace. When you know your thoughts, the mind does not let you go towards the anger side and the attraction side.  

However, I know that this is not a clear explanation for you. I could say that I have tried to explain something. If you are a Sri Lankan, you can search 'Abhidharmaya - Ven 'Thiththagalle Anandasiri Thero for more information. Please forgive me if you could not understand. Just forget the last paragraphs and enjoy the rest.